Leaving Las Vegas
You would think that the last place in the world to have a lasting emotional epiphany would be in Las Vegas but amongst all the tacky decor I found something so stay with me on this one.
In the number of days I was there I only had to worry about two things.
- My work
- Amusing myself between work
Having hit a rough patch I decided to completely let myself go for a couple of nights and just have a good time.
So what was the epiphany? Somewhere between a bar and a blackjack table I realised I was extremely happy, even as a complete nobody in a town I barely knew with my friends on the other side of the world I felt comfortable.
Why? Because I put my satisfaction in front of everything else, somewhere along the way I completely messed up and often found myself putting others in front of me. It doesn't mean that I don't care or that I am completely incapable of caring it simply means I need to be more discerning.
As a result, life is good. I do feel a slight tinge of sadness that I had to jettison someone that I thought was special but it was all a one-way street.
